A year in review....

Well hello there, Happy New Years everyone!! I hope you all have had fantastic holidays, whatever you celebrate! 

This post may not be a happy, 'best of' anything. Its just me reflecting on the year and how I hope 2016 will be. 

Over the last month or so I've been reflecting on where I was a year ago. I was in a much different state of mind. As I have said many times in blog post throughout this year.

2015 was not my year, by any means. Although it is ending fairly well. Tonight I'll be ringing in 2016 with my friends as I have the night off for the first time in years. And better yet I have off New Years Day too! 

I look back at this year and say "good riddance"! 

Last year I remember writing down resolutions, and lets be honest who ever keeps theirs? Out of five I went through with one, but it was an important one. Find a new job. This year I left my job in grocery retail, where I spent 10 years of my life.  It was pertinent to my mental health that I find a new job, one where I wasn't going to bring home the stress. One where my phone wasn't ringing all night with questions from people I thought knew how to do their job. One where I was dreading going to, or having panic attacks because I didn't want to go.

When things get that bad, its time for a change. I remember breaking down in front of my mom and how she reassured me that she would support me no matter what I did, while my dad who now is supportive, wasn't on board at first. 

At my new job I became a certified pharmacy technician. I'm not certified for the state of New York or anything but certified for the pharmacy I work for. I won't ever tell you where I work, I gotta keep some stuff unknown to keep up the mystery. Even though there is not much mystery to me. 

In the latter half year I kind of fell out of love with blogging and Youtubing. I couldn't find the time. and when I did I never wanted to finish what I started. I'm a horrible procrastinator. 

One good thing about this year though was I started working on getting healthy, something I have failed at for most of my life. I started working out during the summer, and I have photographic proof that I made a change in myself. I don't know if I'll ever show that photo to you guys, but the fact that I can see the difference makes me more motivated to keep it up next year and really get my butt in gear.

This year my biggest achievement and yet something I am still working on, dealing with my depression. I know I've talked about it here multiple times so I'll keep it short. This holiday season, compared to the last couple was the best holidays I've ever had. For the first time I felt so happy and realized how unbelievably blessed I am. I still have bad days but for the most part I'm pretty good about keeping my head from swimming around in those bad thoughts. 

For 2016 I have made a list of four goals I would like to achieve. I'm not making resolutions, they don't work. 

My first goal: To be healthier. I want to crack down and make that lifestyle change. 

Second: To go to a Supernatural Convention so I can give Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki a hug and tell them Thank you for helping me though my depression this year. If you want a post on that, how a TV show and its actors can help depression, leave a comment. 

Third: Do what makes me HAPPY. I found out I do love blogging and Youtubing and it makes me happy when I put up a new post or video, so in 2016 I want to do more of that.  Also spending time with family and friends. And giving myself much needed 'me' time to de-stress and relax. 

Fourth: Don't lose hope. Know that things happen for a reason and even though they are many bumps in the road, things will work out and it will be okay. 

I wish for everyone in 2016 to be happy and healthy. I hope that if 2015 treated you bad that you kick it to the curb and make 2016 your year. It will be my year! 

I love you all, thank you for sticking with me and my little blog for the last almost four years now! I will see you in 2016!!! <3

And for making it through this post, here is a photo of Kitkat my little fluffy orange kitty. 

New Years Eve Manicure: OPI: Muir Muir On The Wall.

Hi guys!! Happy New Years Eve!!

I cannot believe that 2013 is coming to a close but on the other hand I am very glad that it is. Looking back on 2013 it wasn't my best year personal wise. I went through a lot of family problems which I have more else blogged about on here. I really have struggled with depression and anxiety in the latter half of this year. I mean I know a lot of people struggle with it and I'm not saying that mine trumps over anyone else but this was the first year it really physically effected me and my well being. There were days that I was just so sad or angry that I didn't want to deal with anything going on in my life. I think that is why my grades suffered so much this fall, and fell into a Netflix coma some days.

Well that last paragraph was really sad....anyhow I am slowly starting to feel like I am getting out of that slump and look to brighter things.

Today I am going to show you what I am wearing on my nails to ring in the new year! Back over the fall I bought a fair few polishes and one of them was Muir Muir On The Wall from OPI's San Francisco Collection.

It is this vampy burgundy shimmer in a black base. I try not to categorize polishes by season, if I want to wear a winter colored polish in the summer so be it! But this polish is what I would say I love about the fall, it reminds me of when the leaves change here in New York, and it still slightly warm about but you still need a light coat, and its hot coffee drinking weather.

This polish is good to go in two coats  but I did three just to even it out because my clumsy fingers kept either hitting each other or something else.

My base coat was OPI Nail Envy Matte and top coat used is Seche Vite.

These photos were taken indoors since when I decided to change my polish it was about midnight.

So how do you guys plan to spend your New Years Eve?? I will be spending mine at home with my family, since I have to work in the morning and eating some good food.

I hope you all have a happy and safe New Years, and if you plan to drink remember to drink responsibly and don't drive, get a DD or a taxi!!

Talk to you guys in 2014!!
<3 Nicole

New Years Eve Mani!

Happy New Years Eve everyone!!

Unless you are in a completely different time zone and its already New Years there, then HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Today I have for you what I am currently wearing for the end of 2012!

2012 has been such an amazing year! I have had some awesome moments and some not so awesome moments but I do think the good out weighs the bad for sure! I have reached so many milestones between life and here on the blog. I never thought my tiny little corner of the internet would get to where it has. As of this post I have hit 8100 views on here and surpassed 200 followers on twitter and I can't tell you all how grateful I am for that! If it wasn't for YOU the readers and followers and the amazing friends I have made, I would not be here!

In life I have had some beautiful things happen. For the first time I feel somewhat financially secure, I paid off all my credit card debt this year and some school debt. All I have left is my student loans from college which we all know takes forever to pay off! I got to welcome my beautiful niece Gianna Nicole in to the world, watching her grow everyday is such a blessing, I can't wait until she utters the words "Aunt Pumpernickel" ( yes that's my nickname :) )

I hope that 2013 will be more amazing than 2012 and I know it will be since there are some amazing things on the horizon. But I would rather talk about them when they happen, right now they are growing and just not ready to bloom. All in all I can't complain about the last year its been just awesome!

So For NYE I originally planned to wear something completely different then what I am going to show you, but I thought there wasn't enough pizzazz for New Years.  So I chose this; I started off with a normal black polish. I used a  Maybelline one that I have had forever, they don't make it anymore I think, I applied two coats for opacity and waited patiently for it to dry. Once dry I took a polish that the lovely Adri from Morie's Nail Art ( go and check her out! ) sent me in our Holiday Swap. Its one of my first Klean Color Polishes. It is appropriately named "Midnight Seduction" and I also used Confetti's Tasmanian Devil. I added Tasmanian Devil to my ring finger and thumb and Midnight Seduction to the rest of the nails. TD is a standard multi-colored glitter and Midnight Seduction is fine glitter polish that flashes blue and magenta.

It may be a simple manicure but sometimes that is the best route. I don't usually wear black nail polish but it is the best two show off these two beautiful glitters.

I hope that for you my dear readers and followers that of 2012 was a good year for you or not and  that 2013 will be oh so much better! If you do go out and party it up tonight please DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE! If your out on the town take a cab home or if at a friends place please crash there or have a designated driver. I don't drink myself but I have seen people who have and what it can do so also PLEASE DRINK RESPONSABLEY!!

Take Care all and see you next year!!
<3 Nicole

NYE Manicure

Okay so the day before NYE I had to work till 10 and usually when I get off at 10 I like sometimes like to wander the store and see if there are any nifty new things to see. About six months ago I found that my grocery store carries OPI nail polish, It used to be just like 10 colors or so all individually packed and hanging on a clip rack. About two months ago I saw they had gotten in a small rack that was from OPI and had four designated spots for blues, reds,brights,and purple.